Dear Jenny,
It is so horrible it's unspeakable. However, I am on a campaign to stop the silence. I am the fortunate one because my little boy told.
Very few children ever report this crime. about 3 percent I think.
My boy is very different he trusted his mommy to stop the pain.
Now he sleeps on the floor in a nest with his toys surrounding him for protection, and clings to my side, and as I said on my blog (online diary) I pulled him out of school.
I did that online diary several years ago as a way for my kids to keep in touch with what I was doing. Then I saw it as a way to spread the information that I am not allowed to talk about until Pat goes to trial.. RIGHT! AS IF!
everyone in this town will know about this predator when I am done.

Kevin the roommate, had a date over last night, I got to reap the benefits and eat his excellent lasagna.
Maria brought a present for Daine, girlscout cookies. I was immediately taken back to the time you and I sat in beanbag chairs and listened to Styx, and ate two boxes of cookies.
You are right, if we saw each other it would be like only yesterday.

Pray for us, I do, and I still pray for everyone else. My sanity is in question, at least I feel like I am unraveling. I do not know if I can speak at the trial, I break down into tears very easily, even sometimes looking at the soft cheek of my darling baby boy.
Wondering what I should have done different? I never leave him alone now, I let him play, but I always am a heartbeat away from him.
He knows.