12850 and it all sux.

So the weirdi that sent my spidey senses tingling decided to drop me. "YOU don't even believe in GOD!"
Wow that is a good reason, I am proud of the little flake.
THEN the dude from wilder got on my yahoo messenger and asked me to call him. I thought I had that guy blocked, I cannot afford to talk to him... he probably is out of groceries again and wants me to shop for him. It was very expensive last time and he never paid for the gas. Besides Gun Toting creeps make me nervous. I just blocked him after telling him I was working on school projects.
He hasn't talked to me for a month, so YOU know he wants me to run errands for him.
He chose to isolate himself not me. I cannot forget that he watched me grab what he thought was a hot electric wire without even warning me. He is just too creepy for words.
Well the other Yahoo that was asking me what I looked like etc, decided I was coming over to his house in Meridian for drinks. I told him I was NOT going over to a stranger's house to drink. I told him we could meet in the park with a bottle in the bag and blend in with the yokels. He did not seem to appreciate that, and I haven't heard from him since.
I am thinking this is what is best, Just scare everyone off, they all expect something for nothing. Last night on 20/20 the story of 8 beautiful texas women who were dating one man exclusivly. They did not know about the other women, they thought they were in a monogamous relationship. Some had been with him for four years. He gave them ALL AIDS! He had told them that he was checked periodically and was clean. He lied.
They were older women, and thought they didn't need condoms because they were in an exclusive relationship and could not become pregnant. THIS IS JUST A WARNING! when it comes to your body, Don't trust anyone.
I cried when I watched that show last night. They were all goodhearted intelligent women. HE Murdered them, he should go to prison for life.
When the police would not, Could not do anything they staked themselves outside of his house and warned all the women that came to visit him. However several more women contracted AIDS before he was sent to prison.
He knew all along that he had it.
I think that anyone who knowingly has AIDS and infects another human being should recieve the death penalty.
And the latest, Sombody named Mike Peavey popped up on my yahoo messenger. He was not a contact, I Don't even know how people do that He offered me a job flagging, then proceeded to ask me what I look like etc. He gave me an email address to send my resume' and a copy of my driver's license too. I am not sending my drivers license, but I thought it couldn't hurt to send a resume' to. EXCEPT it has my address and phone number on the resume' OH WELL... anyway it bounced back, so I emailed him at his peavy e-mail and he sent me the correct e-mail to apply for the job.
AND it sounds like a scam to me, yes it does. He said we should meet in Boise when he gets to town. AND... why should we I wonder?
BASTARDS.

And then....

I am so small

I must keep smiling so the universe can think of more perverse punishment for being naive
The government said they can give me 200 dollars a month if I qualify. Anyone ever hear someone say, "Well they are on welfare, that's why they can afford that new car."? I have heard that stuff before. You know what? It ain't the life of Riley, I said, give me a job, I don't want 200 bucks of month that I have to try and leap my tired ass through hoops of flame for.
Anyone thinks government help is a bowl of cherries can kiss my ass.
Then... I got notice from the brilliant university that I owe them five hundred dollars because I dropped a class. JEEEZ Louize!! I called them. they said, I had to pay that back. I do not have it obviously.
I know!! they can take my 260 dollar parking pass and apply that to the bill, I think that parking pass is stupid anyway, I have to walk a mile to class, that's why I am too sore to go to class again tonight.
SOMETHINGS gotta give here, I am weary of all the set backs.
I am not going to get my social work degree, I am not going to get a degree, if I even survive the winter it will be a miracle.
I need something good to happen.
SO I joined this online dating site. It's called Plenty of fish. I found it by accident, I was looking for "the Voice of Reason" a Reggae band I heard at "art in the park" in Boise on Saturday. Don't ask me how that ended up being a dating site, but it was. ANYWAY, I have been getting a lot of the guys that want "something" for nothing. MAN men can be such assholes. So this nice guy starts talking to me online, and I am thinking... he is nice and he isn't asking me about my ass size. So he says, "Can I call you?" and I said sure, so we talked for over an hour. he sang songs and talked about music, and it was lots of fun. I noticed he asked the same questions over a few times... that's ok I thought; we all do that... BUT he asked me four times if I had a dog... THEN he went ape shit! totally ape shit about me saying I hadn't talked to anyone online from plenty of fish yet... he said, IF YOU WANT TO KEEP LOOKING FOR OTHER MEN GO AHEAD!! he was getting really agitated. I hadn't said that, but what if I had? I mean an hour conversation is not a life long commitment is it?
ANYWAY he wrote me a very rude e-mail and I answered him back, that he misinterpreted what I had said, but ANYWAY I don't see why he was upset.
SO THEN... I get an apology letter and he wants to be friends... I haven't answered him back... MY spidey senses are tingling...
I Don't know what his diagnosis is, but I bet it's got a long name, and I BET he is medicated for it.
Sooo this is the next truly WEIRDO I have met... that's three. They are either horny men wanting a quick jump in the sack, or NUTS... what is this anyway? People need to wear warning labels.
AND NOW this other enlightened human being wants to know what size I am... why is he planning on fitting me into something? I Told him my ass is so freakin huge that when I sit in my car it nearly tips over, and SOO Freekin huge that it hits me in the back of the head when I run. That should scare his shallow self off.