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Saturday, August 06, 2005

Raccoon Eyes and Fuzzy Hair

I figured out an important pondering.. .It goes like this, Chelsie told me this ( my youngest daughter) a man looks at me and thinks beautiful! He could never hope to catch a butterfly so fair... Then by luck, somehow he catches me, opens his hands and looks and says, " HEY WAIT! It's a bug...."I think it was Greta Garbo that said, Men always want to go to bed with Greta Garbo, but they wake up in the morning with just me... There is something to that, the mystery is gone in the morning when I got raccoon eyes and fuzzy hair.
NOT that I am Greta Garbo, or who ever it was that said that. Somebody said it, I read it somewhere.
Anyway.. I like mornings, I like waking up with the gift of the " morning wood fairy" It would be a shame to waste such a gift. Sigh... Celibacy sux rocks.

Thursday, August 04, 2005

Florida in six days


I don't fly, if I were meant to fly I would have wings.
If I think about it now, I will be worrying for the next six days.
It will be fun... I will like it..
I DON'T want to go.
Malabar Florida... What am I thinking, trying to please everyone again.. Over analyzing what is best for me again.

I should have said no when I had the chance, now because of being dependable, people counting on me, I must go.

It's coming up too fast. six days.

Wednesday, August 03, 2005

Super Hero Dancers

So, she is the mother in law of my ex...

Or, her daughter is married to my ex husband...
It was nice seeing Ellen again. She wanted to invite me down to her apartment.
Am I hypersensitive? They all act like it was never my house, like I was never married to selfservingbastardboy.
ANYHOOO, I declined out of respect for T H E I R feelings, not like anyone cares about mine.
FUCK NO I don't want to see my old house and how they have decorated it.
I can get on with my life very well thank you, as long as I don't have to have my nose rubbed into the " Might have been's"
But it's been ten years... Yes it has, however some things fester in your soul no matter how you convince yourself how well you feel.
I feel fine... I sing, I am happy, I look YOUNG, I love my children...
BUT I don't want to see my house on Garden street... Ok their house, used to be mine.
Now I get a back bedroom at my kid's new house, and I am thankful they like me enough.. NOW I get to go to school and decide what I want to do when I grow up.
Never have to put up with yelling and hitting again.
I found true happiness the day I saw his backside while I was driving off to the Oregon coast, some 700 miles away.
Stirring up ghosts is never my favorite pastime.

Tuesday, August 02, 2005

Fritz


Sigh... I think it's time for another impromptu visit you gorgeous man.

Monday, August 01, 2005

Early in the morning

Is Justin Hayward
Gay?
Nobody knows.
I finished cleaning my apartment yesterday, it took 8 hours. Mostly because it was so hot, that I had to keep resting, 104 degrees yesterday, I think.
I dropped the washing machine lid on my left hand, its puffy and it hurts to type..
I hate this "waiting" feeling that has overcome me. Waiting for what?
I don't know, maybe I am waiting for routine.
Janelle's house is full of spontaneity. I prefer to plan mine... can you?
Planned Spontaneity, Faked sincerity?? Justin Hayward's Sexual preference.... These questions and others may never be answered.


So being a bear of little brain (winnie the pooh) I forget I asked and move on to the next pressing dilemna, what to have for breakfast?

I have a Green Day song stuck in my head again... "Waiting" Better then a Neil Diamond song I supose. WAKE UP!

Waiting-- Green Day

I've been waiting for a long time For this moment to come I'm destined For anything...at all Downtown lights will be shining On me like a diamond Ring out under the midnight hour No one can touch me now And I can't turn my back It's too late ready or not at all I'm so much closer than I have ever known... Wake up Dawning of a new era Calling...don't let it catch you falling Ready or not at all So close enough to taste it Almost...I can embrace this Feeling....on the tip of my tongue I'm so much closer than I have ever known... Wake up Better thank your lucks stars.... I've been waiting for a long time For this moment to come I'm destined for anything at all Dumbstruck Colour me stupid Good luck You're gonna need it Where I'm going if I get there... At all.... Wake up

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