Ok, it is September

The time of year that fills me with deep longing. My feet want to move down the dusty path, my mind wants stimulating, and my heart longs for beauty.

I think

I think why am I so exhausted? My arms feel like lead, I can barely move.
My hours got cut again. It can't be helped, but I do not wish to get behind on rent yet again, H E L P !!
Universe hear me, I am a good person, honest and true, I deserve an f-ing break for petes sake.
You get your P H D, how happy you will be when you get a job at wendy's and are honored with employee of the month!! I think never is enough.. yeah never is enough.... Bare Naked Ladies.
In spite of Reflux I am and the dog are going to have a glass of Reisling for dinner. Dainish can have a frozen burrito, preferably thawed first.

I am feeling, "good thing I have a sense of humor".
I am feeling, that I finished the place yesterday! it looks great, though a tad bit tight. A big person wouldn't be able to manuever around the tight corners I have made for us.
It all shall pass, so I am not going to waste a single day on what might have been.
My friend Andy took off to Portland Oregon, he is supposed to be my boyfriend, but he behaves in an un-boyfriend-like manner. So sometimes I call him the un-boyfriend. Sometimes ratassbastard too. Only he is a kind hearted person, just doesn't understand my standards. I try not to be so hard on him, but it is difficult. He has his own secret life, and when I needed help he left me on my own. So I never feel that I can depend on him when it is very important to depend on him. This leaves me to believe that I can do as I damn well please. Perhaps I will.

Me

2000

ok, I will wander off now and feed the viking.... I wish he was three and I was still in Oregon, and Idaho is only a bad dream I had because I ate pickles before bed. I wish I didn't know what I know now, and I wish I still had faith.