Curry permeates my thoughts

Someone is cooking with Curry.
That assails me with memories.
The Bon Marche is no more, it's Macy's now. I used to smell curry when I was walking down town Missoula Montana, there was an Indian Restaurant called the Gilded Lily.
I never ate there, I thought about it, but it was enough for me to walk and shop alone, eating in a restaurant would have been too much for me.
I don't know when I learned to do things on my own, but it took me years.
I hope I am turning into the person, I always wanted to be. I will never be brave, but I will take care of business.

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Louis says, A woman needs a man, like a fish needs a bicycle

I think...... I came at an odd time for Danny, he is going through growing pains, I think I was pain relief, and because I am a nice womean (at times), he feels guilty because he realized that he only wanted a temp.
but I know.... When a man tells me over and over I am a good woman, and I am soooo beautiful, he is merely trying to convince himself... I am not comfortable with so many compliments.
I think we all play games on some level, without meaning too. I am not sure what my game is with Danny... I think, it's the wait him out... I am sooo wonderful bullshit game
but I would rather have it over, then pretending it's going to go anywhere.
And in all my loving, I think I like my freedom best.

Hide the Red Shirt!

It's finished.
I figured out the guilt thing, I didn't work as hard the last two days as I usually do, so I didn't think I showed my usual integrity.
This is phaze two.
Preparing for school, moving to a new home, getting to know a brilliant man.
I get to enjoy things now, no more of the horrible dread associated with working at Jacksons, I cannot say I am un-grateful. BUT I am mostly relieved I am finished with that vile place.
I have a bucket of Moon Flowers ready to plant at the kids new home. It looks like they get the keys Friday.

Just think! no more low life scum hitting on me, no more back breaking work that goes unnoticed and unappreciated!
I am so Thankful, for everything! the learning experience, and that it is finished.
Now on to phase two!

My life is a song from the eighties

High on you!

Ok, orientation at the U of I today, I am a bit nervous.

Date tonight... nervous about that too.
What to wear? Should I fix my hair? oohhhhh
he is so
Gorgeous, clever, articulate, interesting.
Someone I want to know.
The spark is there too.
Like a magnate he draws me near, and all I can do is smile.

Cuz you Know your Speshule

I worked 12 hours, six PM till six AM.
My kids had my car and they forgot me, so I walked six miles home on aching feet.
Now I am sitting and thinking, I feel guilty for some reason. Maybe I think I should still be working for Jacksons?
Maybe it was the pranks I left for them to find later?
hmmmm Dunno, guess I will sleep on it.