You don't fear making plan's a year in advance because you don't fear death.

I do, I think I will be swept off into oblivion at any given moment. This was a strange and terrible burden for me since I was about five years old.
I think of death as my conscienceness being snuffed out. Like my soul will be gone and I will cease to exist.
I know what the bible says, and I know how it is interpreted, however, how many people do you know that have come back and told us about it? That thing about the light at the end of the tunnel is merely self hypnosis before the BIG FAT NOTHING. That is what I secretly think, but I believe in God just in case.
Do you think I am insane?
If I am it's been fun at times.

All is well in the St.Kevin/Dusky household. Carl left Saturday and it seems like months since I saw him. A few phone calls a day are not enough, I need a new hobby beside obsession.
The ill mannered un-washed children are fighting all morning. I have put a stop to it several times. I am thinking of buying a garden hose. I will turn it on them next. AHHH yes this is my true calling, everyone says so.

Mr. Long term Insurance
I dont have any freaking insurance. K???

I am up late, and I cannot sleep, I prefer not to tell you why, but here goes.....
I miss you, I love you, I desire your touch.
You melted the Ice Princess, and I think you know.
I told St. Kevin, that if you are through with me, I will never love another man again. OOH yeah, it sounds so damn dramatic... BUT I mean it baby. After loving you, no one will ever do.
If I could unleash my shyness and tell you... I have many images of your sweet face. Your sincerity when you told me that the fishing was lousy, your optimism when you offered me San Francisco.
I will be an old lady some day raising cats, and my favorite memory will be of you looking at me and explaining that the fishing was lousy and you were up here to see me. I am honored. so blessed that a man like you could love someone like me.
You are so amazing. OH honey I hope you are truly mine.
I love you so much it hurts to breathe, tonight I sleep alone.
All I can see is that sweet mouth of yours.. The one I could kiss forever.
I wish I could kiss you again. I wish I could make you smile.
Carl I love you so much.
Love me back