weird thing I learned

I wanted to write a thank you note to my ex best friend. I wanted to tell her she did me a favor all those years ago. You see, one should never hang on to things that are finished and she knew that. I am not saying she had my best interest at heart, but my marriage was over and I hung on in fear and rage and lived a horrible existence. When I finally had the courage to let go, against my will I might add, I learned all about the strength and beauty inside me that I never thought I had.
I hope her marriage to Michael (THE EX) is long and happy I only wish them well. I think I have truly evolved.
Now I wish that Sharon knew the things I know, her marriage is over and has been a long time. Holding on tight to Steven only makes everyone un-happy, but I know why she is doing it, I know too well, but I really doubt she will be thinking about writing me a thank you note one day I really do.
Come what may I am going to win this one, it is my time.

as much as I dont want to...

I will be there. At work. Dammit anyway.
Work is such a waste of ass hair. Drive fifty miles to work four hours.
Steven came by to check on me today. sigh... love that man.
Saw Pastor Steve this morning, what a nice talk we had. I feel better about my spiritual issues and My lean machine Steven H.
Pastor said, "Sometimes we cannot help where our heart goes." That would certainly explain everything.

it went without a hitch so to speak

The needle in the taa taa wasn't so bad. Took all of fifteen minutes. I am not even bleeding. I took 800 miligrams of ibuprofen before and I haven't had any cramping. I saw what she stuck in me, it was five feet long at least, but I only felt a little discomfort, and it was finished before I had time to complain. I think the worst part was the stinging of the iodine that they put everywhere on my skin and cervix.
so in a week I find out what is wrong with me, I hope anyway.
So depending on the results,I either get the knife or the torch... neither sounds good to me.
she had said that if it's hormone imbalance, they will cure it with pills.

Head Ache

Blinding ear splitting crashing headache. Debilitation exhaustion. YOW spent the whole day sleeping off my non existent hang over, what the hell is wrong with me? I found I had forgotten coffee, so I drank a cup. Dainish over-nuked the last hot dog, so I ate a handful of raw almonds. I gotta get some gumption somewhere, I did a load of the child's laundry and hung them up to dry, then slept three hours. I am taking the iron the Dr. prescribed for me, I tried it on an empty stomach like it suggests but I felt like I was going to hurl.
So Sweet Bruce gave me some sweet corn and zucchini along with a bunch of cherry tomatoes from his garden. I ate the cherry tomatoes at work last night, (sorry Daine) I am going to drag my sorry ass to the kitchen and cook that corn if its my last attempt before another nap. I am pathetic, my floors need vacuuming, I cannot get the strength. Steven offered to come over and clean my house, I don't even want him to know how dirty it is.
Steven drives me to the Dr. tomorrow for the medieval torture chamber. I REALLY don't want to go.
MORE freeking drama! Huh Kimmie??