I hope I don't get thrown off the school grounds today. I am meeting K from past math and sociology classes and successful hair expert. She is small but fierce. She says if BSU won't buy back my books, she will sell them under her school number.
I think I have a handle on the bronchial spasms. After several bouts of coughing and not being able to breathe, I Think the inhaler and antibiotics are working. Scary experience. I don't ever want to feel like that again. You can't cough because you can't get air so you make a barking seal noise and gasp and struggle. I had a dentist appointment yesterday, I was afraid it would happen in the chair. I had an atack at 2 AM that day, and it was fresh in my mind. Running through the apartment struggling and panicking. I found the inhaler and did my best to suck it in with no air comming in.
LIKE I said I don't want to experience that again. I turned off Scentsy and the candle melter and put a vaporizer on with a touch of salt in it. Seems to be helping. I Hope so.
Thursday, December 10, 2009
Tuesday, December 08, 2009
Avoidance
Why is it I don't trust you? Why do I expect you to mislead, why should it matter? I remind myself it doesn't matter at all.
I had my first day of orientation yesterday, I am going to like this company. They are so concerned with the children that we get a lot of training. I transferred my police back ground check to AFI. Now I wait for the tech that's going to train me to call. Wish they would get off their ass and schedule me! I am ready.
its 8 bucks an hour, and my first pay check won't be until December 31st. I am not sure what to do for Daine's Christmas. I have $1.25 in my checking account. His father didn't put the 100.00 in there either. However if he did... I still have to pay phone bill 50.00 and Internet 50.00 so that still leaves me with 1.25 in the account.
OOH dammit, I Forgot I have some school books in my car to sell back to BSU. I only wonder if they will pay me for them as I am officially kicked out of school. GAWD I am officially kicked out. Hard times count for nothing, BSU cuts me no slack for shit happens.
BUT... being Glena I find a way to work around the bitter disappointment and feeling of failure. I do not have self loathing as some people say about me, I really like me, I just wish I was smarter then I am about predicting trends. I seem to go the wrong way, say and think the wrong thing, and figure it out too late. Apologies aside, I understand that people are not as forgiving as I am, because maybe they don't realized that THIS is all there is. and I am a slow learner you know?
I had my first day of orientation yesterday, I am going to like this company. They are so concerned with the children that we get a lot of training. I transferred my police back ground check to AFI. Now I wait for the tech that's going to train me to call. Wish they would get off their ass and schedule me! I am ready.
its 8 bucks an hour, and my first pay check won't be until December 31st. I am not sure what to do for Daine's Christmas. I have $1.25 in my checking account. His father didn't put the 100.00 in there either. However if he did... I still have to pay phone bill 50.00 and Internet 50.00 so that still leaves me with 1.25 in the account.
OOH dammit, I Forgot I have some school books in my car to sell back to BSU. I only wonder if they will pay me for them as I am officially kicked out of school. GAWD I am officially kicked out. Hard times count for nothing, BSU cuts me no slack for shit happens.
BUT... being Glena I find a way to work around the bitter disappointment and feeling of failure. I do not have self loathing as some people say about me, I really like me, I just wish I was smarter then I am about predicting trends. I seem to go the wrong way, say and think the wrong thing, and figure it out too late. Apologies aside, I understand that people are not as forgiving as I am, because maybe they don't realized that THIS is all there is. and I am a slow learner you know?
Sunday, December 06, 2009
Oh he is
He said we needed to celebrate me getting a job. He took me to Chapella's. He said that I was very intelligent, but lack confidence. He said smart people are patient and like to hear what I have to say, stupid people are mean to me because they can be.
I told him when ever he tells me something like that, it's like he has given me a gift. A little key that unlocks hidden knowledge. Now I know, play it cool with the idiots.
Tomorrow is orientation. Tomorrow makes me nervous.
IT is butt cold out there. I have walked the dog twice, but I know I have to brave that stiff breeze again.
One more time.
I made tartar sause for the fish fillets. Daine said "better write it down mom."
several klausen dill pickles;chopped, dried onion, teaspoon of fresh garlic, teaspoon of honey,dash of lemon pepper, juice of one small lemon,and one cup of mayonaise. Oh Yeah!
I told him when ever he tells me something like that, it's like he has given me a gift. A little key that unlocks hidden knowledge. Now I know, play it cool with the idiots.
Tomorrow is orientation. Tomorrow makes me nervous.
IT is butt cold out there. I have walked the dog twice, but I know I have to brave that stiff breeze again.
One more time.
I made tartar sause for the fish fillets. Daine said "better write it down mom."
several klausen dill pickles;chopped, dried onion, teaspoon of fresh garlic, teaspoon of honey,dash of lemon pepper, juice of one small lemon,and one cup of mayonaise. Oh Yeah!
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