Shocking thoughts of GjD

I always thought that you and I should not have to work. We deserved to be Goddess' however the rest of the world did not comply with our wishes. SUX I have to work and nobody really wants me anyway.
SIL had a crisis on thursday, I ended up calling an ambulance for him and taking care of the four girls.
Friday C is haveing a crisis, and I get the boys for 4 days.
Gawd maybe that is making my karma bad? Complaining about my loving family. I think they would figure it out better without me. C doesn't really like me anyway.
I know this deep in my heart, but I Don't ever say it out loud.
I don't know why men pick me up. Sincerely... if they are attracted to me they have a screw loose, and this one does. He is nice, but... I would rather kiss my cocker spaniel if you get my drift.
He just doesn't ring my bells, and he smokes, and he has a greasy mustache that is loaded with nicotine, and it looks yellow and slimy, and when he points his lips in my direction I duck!
I am sure that hurts his feelings but I have very little tolerance for the "ICK" factor.
SIGH... I am beginning to feel like an OCD bitch. I figured out that Daine and I live in peace and when you add anything else it messes up the balance.
I Don't have enough of a Harlot in my soul anymore to put on the dog. I could have a free place to live if I crawled into slimy mustache man's bed. I think my knees are glued shut.
I have already tried to figure out ways to get rid of him, and he is very nice... but the ICK factor is high on my scale.
OH I am such a brat.

She works at the doctor's office

I don't remember her name, but she has her nails done and she is very sleek and professional. That is until she sniffs me all over the place. She recognises that I have a dog. Strange, Sherman doesn't sniff me when I get back from the visit.
I am who I am he hinted. I will not be able to change or bring out the harlot in my heart. I will not be less then my integrity will allow me.
I know I am happy alone. He said I am not without self esteem even though I feel like dirt now, the pride still shows through, and I will find a job and I will prevail. RIGHT RIGHT...

Joy

I got the cortisone shot in my right shoulder. I felt that all the way to my knuckles.
I forgot about the tattoo on my shoulder. The doctor said I should get the tattoo finished while the numbing shot is working...

Casting Instructions for ' BANISHING A FOOL'

To Make An Un-Wanted Guest Not Only Leave Your House, But To Make Their Presence Seem Forgotten.
when starting the spell, make ok signs with your hands and say:

Ashes to Ashes, Dust To Dust
while saying ''dust to
dust'' put your hands (still in ok position) one by one at your sides.
then say
This I ask for is a must
turning and
putting hands in praying postion while saying
''must''
not a foot more, shall this fool set through these doors
covering your eyes and sheilding your mouth say:
neither his name nor his face, ever be seen or
spoken around this place.
This I ask for with all my might,
that this fool shall
leave my sight.

So Mote It Be!

HA!

Basically my life sux with good bits thrown in here and there.

Well well well, it is what it is.

AND it came as no surprise to me that Michelle the recruiter for Scentsy's temp employees called me Sunday. "This is very hard for me to say Glena...." I saved her the effort. I told her I knew that even though I was trying very hard, I was getting 55 emails out a day, while the kids were getting out 100. It makes more sense to get rid of the slow old farts and get more of those fast newer models. There are two positive things... I wasn't the first to get let go, and I have two weeks of pay coming to me.
Now what to do? I am thinking that I am just incompetent. What am I good at? I dropped out of school and it looks like I cannot go back, and I am unable to find work, or even keep a temp job putting in sales orders and e-mailing customers.
I am not fast, I am not detail orientated, I am not wanted anywhere.
Is there a government program for the over fifty and un-wanted?
On Saturday after working my ass off, I decided to put my pay check in the bank,(all 150 dollars of it) I didn't think that I would be able to do it during banking hours since I don't get home till six-ish. I waited by the night deposit box, and finally I decided that the gentleman getting money out wouldn't mind me putting my check in behind him as I appear harmless enough.
He turned and smiled at me. I don't even know how it came about but we introduced ourselves and he got my phone number and asked me out on a date.
We went to dinner last night and he brought my son home a burger from McDonald's (Big Points) He stayed and watched a movie that he wasn't very interested in. He is very nice.
Daine said,"Do you like him mom?" I said, "Yes I do, he is very nice." Daine said "Thank GOD!" what is that supposed to mean? Thank god why? but he wouldn't explain himself the little shit.