Yes I know it is your show, and I know that the load you carry is very heavy. Do you know that you are very tedious and time wasting and unpleasant and mean sometimes? Do you know that I don't need to hear your medical prognosis for six hours? and do you know that conversation consists of two people bantering words back and forth gently? Not one person standing over the other refusing to let anyone else talk.
Jeez I know I can be talkative at times, but I am never rude and I do care about you, but you make it very hard.
I told you I had a cut thumb, that is not trying to "ONE-UP" your pain and suffering, I told you that I agree with you, that is not trying to over shadow your specific pain. I have kept my mouth shut and let you go on for hours and waste both of our time, but you still think that I am talking too much. I am certain that nothing I do, or don't do would please you in the end. I think you would try a guardian angel's patience to the point of screaming.I am empathetic, and I am also discerning and I can see how you have lived your life, and I can see in some ways why you are where you are now. A lot of loving people have tried to help you, but you always know best. I am very considerate that you are dying, and I want to be there for you. Yes I know you have boundaries and pride, but you still are unpleasant and in another life on another day, I would kick your ass for being mean to miss Glena Jean, who has a soft heart and really cares that your remaining days are filled with sunshine and laughter. Perhaps you will learn something too, even though you are so bent on teaching me.
you are teaching me what I already know, but I must remain silent while you smile that horrible smile that sends chills up my spine. I have seen that smile before, its the smile someone makes when they are about to say something incredibly short sighted. And my dear you are, you were not a caring giving person in life, and you are not a caring giving person nearing your death. I wish I was a better match for your needs, but I don't think anyone is. I wish you would quit complaining about how horrible all your last care givers were, because I am sure that I am next on your list of inept and stupid care givers. You do not give people a chance, nor do you credit anyone with intelligence. You really do not know best, but you are too young to die without learning more in this life.
I would not have liked you when you were well either.
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An ogre (feminine: ogress) is a large,
cruel and hideous humanoid monster,
featured in mythology, folklore and
fiction. Ogres are often depicted in
fairy tales and folklore as feeding on
human beings, and have appeared in many
classic works of literature. In art,
ogres are often depicted with a large
head, abundant hair and beard, a
voracious appetite, and a strong body.
The term is often applied in a
metaphorical sense to disgusting persons
who exploit, brutalize or devour their
victims.
