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Saturday, November 05, 2005

YAY its Saturday!

I sleep on a heating pad for my permanently stiff neck, it started making noises. zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzZZZAP! bbbbbrrrr zzzz, I thought, its going to catch on fire and burn my ear off in my sleep. I wouldn't have been able to sleep with the weird noise in my ear anyway.
My daughter says, "your not supposed to sleep on them." OH! doggone it, it was working so well too.
I have an old one with no instructions, so it's a good thing I told her about it. Can't they make one that you can sleep on? I used to have ferrets that had a pen outside, (Don't ask, stupid landlord from California) I put a heating pad in their cage to keep them warm and they slept on it. I mean what good are they if you can't put them under anything?

subject Two.
Lucy the Labrador, crawled up and slept next to me on the bed Wednesday night. she doesn't usually, she likes sleeping under my desk. When my alarm went off in the morning I reached over and petted her on the head. My hand came away sticky and wet.
So being the alarmist that I am, I jumped out of bed and turned on the light. Her tumor on her head had gotten so large it split open and was oozing fluid and blood. It seemed to correct itself, but I wanted to take her to the vet. I have been told for years that she has fatty tumors and nothing can be done about them. They usually get large and split open a few time a year.
GET THIS! The vet says, that they are NOT fatty tumors they are cysts and should be removed. I am so mad, I have had three vets tell me they are tumors, and they are non-cancerous, don't disturb the dog with surgery. SO NOW four years later two new vets tell me something very different.
They have to come off, so its 650.00 dollars I have to come up with.
The vets also said, if I had them removed when they were new they would have been a simple office procedure,done with a local anesthetic. I cannot tell you how mad I am at the three brookings vets that informed me they were fatty tumors.
My poor baby has suffered with these for four years.
I used to go to this Boise vet years ago, it was strange looking up, and having that feeling of recognition. I doubt very much he remembered me, his partner knew a vet from Brookings that I used to rent movies to when I worked for Rays in the video department. Small world as they say.
Anyway. Lucy will get that surgery some how, but I don't know for sure when I have to pay off the car as per an agreement with Chetco Financial. They agreed to let me keep my car if I agreed to pay it off in January, so there goes the money I would have had to get Lucy fixed.
I am sure I will figure out something, I always do.

Tuesday, November 01, 2005

Racism, Prejudice, how it affects us all

In my white bread little world, I haven't come across the types of prejudice that people in big cities take for granted and live with every day. I originated in a small town in Northern Idaho, and learned of a different type of prejudice, not regarding race, but gender.
At the time a small pat on the head by the person in authority, telling me not to worry my pretty little head over the problem, seemed a compliment. It was later that I realized that I wanted to be heard and taken seriously.
I could see that the person in charge would be a man, and he may not necessarily be correct, but the judgment would stand regardless, because he was “the Man” Life starts to count when you wish to be heard, and you want your ideas to come across, but you have to work harder at getting an idea across because of color, creed, or gender. In a personal way it pisses me off.
I never liked injustice of any kind; I like the truth to be told. I think there are times when people get what they deserve. There are times when life isn’t fair. Prejudice is unfair, it generates hostility. We all want what we believe to be justly ours; a fair chance, a good shake, acceptance.
Often time we don’t give a damn if someone else is suffering from unfairness, only that we get what we believe is our fair share.
Prejudice has been a problem since the beginning of time. Cain and Abel were the first brothers.
Cain blamed his brother Abel for his problems, and murdered him.
**Then the Lord asked Cain, "Where is your brother Abel?"
Cain answered, "I don't know: Am I my brother's keeper?"
God said, "What have you done? I hear the voice of your brother's blood crying to me from the ground. Now you will be cursed on the earth soaked with your brother's blood which was drawn by your own hand."**
Then Cain went out from the presence of the Lord.
So it has been that way since. We like to blame others for our dislikes and wrongs.

I think Prejudice has several possible causes.
(1) Jealousy
(2) Fear
(3) Lack of understanding
(4) Blame

When discussed further it comes down to a mistaken belief that one race, gender or religion is better then another. Where did this come from? People get angry enough to kill over these beliefs. We are all special…just like everyone else.
Some of our problem generates from the scripts we carry from birth. We are taught proper etiquette and what is polite to say. However we do not readily know if these scripts carry over to different types of people then we are used to dealing with. We are not sure, this can lead to suspicion and distrust.
A script helps us fit in; we do what is expected of us in order to go unnoticed.
If you ever listen to different cultures tell jokes, you will note that what one country finds uproariously funny, another will stare blankly and wonder what the punch line is.
This might be where prejudice comes from.
Whatever the cause of prejudice it is necessary to make it our own problem. We need to judge sources for our safety. We will always be wary of new things as human beings, this is necessary for survival. However let it not be because of a person’s color or beliefs, but how they carry themselves and if they are a good person

Sunday, October 30, 2005

Tartuffe

Tartuffe
http://www.musearts.com/cartoons/theater/tartuffe.swf
We are reading tartuffe in Theatre class. I was hoping to find a movie of it to watch online. I found this one, (the link for it is above) It is Tartuffe put on by the guinea Pig Theatre.
Thought I would share

Wake Up!

Well it just goes to show you that you can live a moderate lifestyle, take good care of your body and still feel like crap when you wake up in the morning.

Janelle says, "Kayla, talk quieter, Gramma has a hangover." I looked at her in surprise, I haven't drank in forever, I just look like I do. (Where the hell would I hide a bottle in this household?)
I woke up stiff, unable to turn my neck and my knees are cracking.
I think this is called welcome to fifty.
Gramma Gladwill used to say, 'If I knew I was going to live this long I would have taken better care of myself." We all say that when things that used to work without a glitch are now complaining in pain from over-use. IF I knew then.. what I know now, I would have worked less hard, SHEESH!
I see nothing wrong with ME sitting on a throne, having my minions wait on me... "Bring me tea! Polish my toenails! Clean the house."The problem with getting older, is not only do I look unpleasant, but I sound unpleasant too. A simple request sounds like rounds of bitching to my family. I only asked!! They say, " OK OK OK" It can only get worse. I am taking my dog and moving up in the mountains. Even she bitches.

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