People say: "Oh you have been hurt before." and I think: "I've done my share of hurting others too. I don't know which is worse, being the hurter or the hurtie." One has guilt, the other pain.
My mind knows that I have to risk being hurt, if I want to share life with someone else. But when it's hurting, my heart can't seem to get past the pain.
Ah, the constant struggle between the mind and the heart, logic and emotion. At times, I wish I had one, without the other, but I can never decide which one I want. Mostly I wish I could figure out how much of each I should use at any particular time.
Seems like it's always one or the other, never a balanced mix of the two. Maybe it's like oil and water, just won't mix, or maybe like a rotten potatoe, one spoils another.
Who knows, I guess it's just life.