You don't fear making plan's a year in advance because you don't fear death.

I do, I think I will be swept off into oblivion at any given moment. This was a strange and terrible burden for me since I was about five years old.
I think of death as my conscienceness being snuffed out. Like my soul will be gone and I will cease to exist.
I know what the bible says, and I know how it is interpreted, however, how many people do you know that have come back and told us about it? That thing about the light at the end of the tunnel is merely self hypnosis before the BIG FAT NOTHING. That is what I secretly think, but I believe in God just in case.
Do you think I am insane?
If I am it's been fun at times.